And so yes, long has it been before I last updated. I could even feel the cobwebs settling in, bt not for long!

I'm returning to this blogger life sooooon, pretty soon. Meanwhile I will try to update my own life story, without pics tht is.

I really choose not to mention anything about my life. Pretty messy it seems, and im getting the hang of some things.

Attachment is a huge distraction & you can partly blame it as the reason why I'm not updating this blog. It's also going to be the reason why my blood keeps shooting up sky-high. Blehhs.

Oh wells, side tracked a bit. I'm still in Bird Park. Funny how it seems that I'm always looking forward to working in the weekends. Partly because I deserved that pay as compared to a meagre sum of a pay for my attachment. I bet foreign talents earned more okay? That's how bad it is.

And yeah, the 3 boys I'm close with at wrk. Feels like telling more about them. There'd be my best & close friend, Ahmad Naufal, my cute Libra friend, Fadhir & the ladies' man, Faidzul.
Looking forward to see them at work every weekend because somehow or other they perked my little snugs up. But that does not mean I'd forget my fabulous duo. It's been a long pretty while since I last hanged out with them, so long that asking them out again makes me feel shy.

Maybe one of them is just avoiding me. I really hope one day he will forget all that had happened, because that's pretty much what I had done. Even your current status now, no matter how hard you tried to hide it from me, you can't escape my observing BBC skills. Just come clean. I don't know why you would choose to keep it low profile, but oh wells, DPDP- different people, different perspective.

So yeah, that's pretty much about it. Ad what I'm doing now? Much or less getting ready for work. Yes I'm late. Thanks or reminding. And oh yes, should rush myself now. Till then, may peace be upon you (:




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Okay, I will just post up something short today because I need to let things flow out and be less angry. Today is bad, and I have a strong hunch that it's really gonna test my patience for this couple of days to come.

Maybe Allah is testing my patience, and I will try to be patient. Even now, I'm silent while typing all this but my eyes are tearing and my mind, a messy clutter.
I try not to think of things that I don't want to. Everything's turning bad on me.

O Allah, to you I endlessly pray that everything will come to a peaceful end. I hate when I teared up at night, but I will still smile the next morning.

I shall just keep silent and keep on selawating. It will help clear my mind of every single thing, insyallah.

And, I have decided to not get disappointed for the third time. If Allah meant for us to be one, we will be one. For now, I shall just let things loose on my end. "Qun Fa Ya Qun."


Till here folks,
Assalamualaikum (:







I wonder if stars cry too,
Nadiah

Helloo people,

Today I feel like updating because I need to get things off my mind and chest.

I seriously think it's a good idea that I took a break from the heart affairs. Maybe it's not the right time. So now maybe I could just admire you from afar and keep telling my mind "No, I'm taking a break."
I hope it does help to alleviate the ache a bit, insyaallah.

For now I just follow the flow and let time tell. Maybe I will meet the one in the most unexpected circumstances; I really believed in that :)

For once, you keep confusing me with your actions, at times you make me feel like a human door wedge; use it only when needed.
Such an unpredictable outcome, to sum it all up.

And also, why is it I am always being maligned in some relationships with my male friend? Can't I have a male friend?

Oh wells, I guess I'm immune to these kinds of rumors spreading like wildfire. All I know is to just stay true to myself and pray hard things will tide over pretty soon, insyaAllah.

Anw really can't wait for exams to be over. Like seriously, these 2 papers left are killer-papers. Passing the exams suddenly become the most important priority in my life now.


Anw, guess till here folks,
Assalamualaikum.





Your subtleties are strangling me,
Nadiah

Allahumma 'aafinii fii badanii. Allaahuma 'aafinii fi sam'ii. Allaahumma 'aafinii fii basharii. Allaahumma innii a'uudzu bika minal kufri wal faqri. Allahumma innii a'uudzu bika min 'adzaabil qabri laa illaaha illaa anta.

"Ya Allah, sembuhkanlah badanku. Ya Allah, sembuhkanlah pendengaranku. Ya Allah sembuhkanlah penglihatanku. Ya Allah, aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari kekafiran dan kefakiran. Ya Allah, aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari siksa kubur, tiada Tuhan selain-Mu. (HR. Abu Daud)"

InsyaAllah, I will get well soon.

I went Dialogue in the Dark just now for WISP lesson. The moment I stepped in, I get all panicky; it's like waking up to another day, just without the ability to see. It's superrr dark, and every step I took, I keep wondering whether there are walls above my head, will my head bang against the wall, will my face bang against anything. Now, I understand the every fear a blind person will face when they walked on this Earth. What Stenphel mentioned is quite true, we are not doing much for the visually impaired.

Anw, It's really an eye-opener. HAHAH, Nicholas is veryy gentleman just now, and I really ought to thank him when he guided my hand to the exit. The cane is not useful because you will hit on the front person's legs, like irritating. Haha, I think my batch are fun, with Stenphel and Nicholas. Pamela was helpful too.

It was a nice experience, and I dont mind paying another 10 bucks to go there again! :D

Oh ya, I went to the last bonding session for lil brother. There, I met different types of parents who have different takes on their children. I didnt know these people still exist, and I really am grateful and thankful even, to Allah swt for giving me a pair of responsible parents who tried their best in showering us with unconditional love. Oh mum and dad, me LOVE you.

I did better today than I did yesterday. Alhamdulillah. I'm a happy kid today, I don't know why. Maybe, news has it that I will get in Menlo, maybe I'm just a happy sunflower like I used to be?

But, whatever the reason was, I thank Him for making my heart smile today, praises to Allah.

And, I know you know, that you could do more, but you don't. And, I still believe that there is more love than hate, there's more heart than ache & we are stuck in this great big world together.

If only you knew, if only you threw me a chance as your lifeline. If only...

I wish I could say to you right now that I dreamt of you last night, and when I woke up, the first thought was you. How I wish I could give you a text right there and then, just to give you a SUPER big thank you for making me feel this way.

I know part of my change, I have to thank you for that. THANK YOU. Someday, you'll know who you are.

Anw, gotta go for now, till here, assalamualaikum. :D

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And, I still believe that there is love at stake, there's no time to wait. We could change the world, if we try.

Nadiah